Exit 2008 ...Enter & Welcome 2009!!...

FINALLY FINALLY!! I am probably the happiest woman in the world right now because 2008 is over!! Woohoo..
What a year it was. I must say I will never go through another year like that again!
LOL I promise you!
I can't even begin to explain the things I learned and experienced this year..
However, it made me smarter and stronger. I'm ready to face 2009 head on.
I'm glad a lot of people are out of my life right now and I'm happy I let go all those party habits I had..and the fake people I was surrounded by.

I have great people in my life now. I try to surround myself with positive people and things. And with that, my life has been great. I have managed to find happiness! I hope for better things in 2009. For me, for my family and loved ones, and for everyone else out there! Oh and let's not forget Obama!! YAY!

Don't make resolutions people because if you waited this whole time to do the things you planned to do in the new year, maybe you shouldve done it a long time ago! ;-)

Here is Chanel at 3 months:

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!

YAY SO IT IS FINALLY HERE! IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! I am so excited. I had the best birthday ever. I actually realized today how loved I am. I got so many gifts and calls and cards. I'm so happy. This was on my actual birthday Tuesday Nov. 18th. These are my favorite roses. Pink roses!! They smelled so lovely..






This is our girls nightout.. Saturday Nov. 23rd. We had to go celebrate the day a queen was born of course!! LOL ;-) And I decided to cut my hair for my birthday..Do you like?



These are the triplets! My sis, I and my cousin Prissers..

Just an update..

So as usual, I get a little ahead of myself. Just like i do every year.
My birthday is coming up. And i have already started counting down! I actually started a month ago LOL. By time my birthday comes people are usually tired of me already because i remind them every saiangle dsay for almost two months straight.
I have a couple of different things planned but i dont know yet, what I'm going to do.

Oh by the way Chanel is now almost 3 months old. My little princess..

My daughter Chanel..

Yay so I just made the best purchase, I've ever made! I bought a Tea-cup pomeranian today!
I actually went looking for a male pomeranian I was going to name Armani. However, once i saw her she stold my heart immediately! So I got a female even though we have a male chihuahua at home. So it will cause a few problems LOL.
Anyways my little baby she is 1 month old. I named her Chanel..
Everyone say hiiii...



I love animals.. they are so innocent and loving.
I want to buy a big house in a few years and take in all the stray kitties and puppies in the street, that are cold and hungry :-(

WAKE UP AMERICA & MAKE A CHANGE!

It really really irritates me that so many "americans" are so very ignorant! As i watched the National Convention this evening, (which by the way was a beautiful speech), lots of my friends were saying that they were not going to vote at all. For neither one of these guys because what they do don't affect them. Are they not aware that everything affects us? Whether its high taxes, oil prices for those that own cars, less and less jobs, no health care, no way to pay for school and tuition etc.
I was bothered and very much upset at the fact that 1 vote, just 1 vote can make a difference. Everyone has a voice. And your voice is that vote and for some reason those that don't vote are THE ONES THAT ARE QUICK TO COMPLAIN when the changes are not what they want. Like when Bush won the election. Yes yes it has been proven that most of these canditates especially from the past, are all talk. They say what they have to say to win. HOWEVER, "Obama is the ONLY politician that I have seen, that has the effect to unify everyone! And unified people get the job done!" -Dapperboy
So I truly believe if America comes together we can see progress! Regardless of race, color of skin and ethnicity, if you have been following the election you will realize Obama is the best man for the job. Exactly what America needs. SO 67 days left for election day! OBAMA FOR PRESIDENT! VOTE OR DIE!

KISSES
MRZ ENDY..

When does concern become obsession -DMR

The point of this blog is very simple.
At times you have friends that think that by being honest with you and putting their nose in your business is what being a friend is about.
Well it gets to a point where the line is crossed. A friend is one that when you fall will say "its ok I'm here to help you get up." Not one that will say "I told you that was gonna happen. You should've listened to me."

Its fine to want to be there for a person if you don't want to see them hurt. Understandable. However, some people take it too far. Friends think that tough love is fine. Throwing things in your face when you are down, they think is going to help you be strong and help you get over it. Well it doesn't. People heal differently. And maybe that person just needs someone to be there and listen to them. Not to be broken down even more.

Now when is it concern and when is it obsession?
Concern is when you give the person your point of view and simple advice, and step off.
Either they take it or not. We still have to learn our own way. You can't expect people to go by what your are saying just because you are the friend. Especially when not everyone knows full details on everything. Its easy to judge from the outside.

Now obsession is taking it a little too far. It's trying to MAKE the person do as you say.
At times everyone has a friend or two that for some reason doesn't approve anything and everything in your life.
Someone who doesn't like who you are dating, speaking to, are friends with etc.
I once had a friend years ago. That for some reason every guy I was getting to know, dating or even friends with, was a loser, a lame, a waste of time- according to my friend.

He had a problem with every guy I knew. None of them were good enough for me. They were going to treat me like shyt in the long run etc etc.
I began to realize the problem wasn't these people. The problem was my friend.
Why didn't he like anybody that entered my life? [[A little weird and maybe a bit obsessed if you ask me]]

We all have a friend that we feel we can trust and we go to with our problems, and we turn to when we are mad and sad and even with the happy times.
But if everytime you want to brag about your good times they gonna shut you down and be bothered by it, then I don't need to be surrounded by those people.

"Get away from hateful people, only deal with loved ones." -NAS

Kisses
--MRZ ENDY

Love..What you know about that?..

In this life we all have some kind of thought about love. That filled our hearts. You can love somebody so much, sometimes even more than yourself. If you haven't contemplated murder. You haven't been in love. If you haven't thought about killin that 1 person that hurt you then you never been in love. LOL I'm joking people gosh!

However, Who doesn't long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told?... Relationships are good but not the permanent ones...
Our hearts can be our worse enemy. Even though I'm young, I'm very traditional and old school.
I believe that you can only love once in your life.
If you say you "lovED" someone, either you still do, or you never did. I don't believe that you can love and move on and love again. I don't believe that love can just die so easily and you can just move on. Love is a huge emotion for me. Something that stays with you forever no matter how much you try to erase it and/or cover it up, it doesnt die. It's an impact a certain person had in your life. And it can't be erased by a new relationship.
Most can try. And you can tell yourself over and over again "no I'm over that person. I don't love them anymore." Deep down inside, you know.... In one way or another they hold a piece of you and a piece of your heart. If it's easy for you to forget maybe you never loved.

Why don't our hearts do what ur mind tells it to? I wish i had the answer to that. If it were that simple i wouldnt be a writer. LOL I write because i have a passion to change someone's life. If just ONE person can be down on love, they can read my writings and realize they re not alone. I want to make an impact in someones life. I hope I caught someones attention so far while they read my blogs LOL. But I tell you someday I'm gonna find a guy that's gonna change my life and I tell you someday true love is waiting out there for me. Someone who will appreciate me for me and understand the love I give..
Today is where my book begins the rest is still unwritten... ;-)

--Kisses
MRZ ENDY

felices son los que viven sin juzgar..

The point of this blog is very simple.
As most of you are aware I haven't been writing on here much. Don't worry I still write just in my special notebook or my Sidekick.
I haven't been able to come on here and update you guys.
However, a lot has happened. And I've experienced so much and learned and grown. I was surrounded by fakes, phonies, hypocrites etc. I had to move on and move up and away from the negativity surrounding me.

People who had nothing to offer me but a smile that was worthless due to it being a lie.
At the time being, unfortunately, I'm not 100% sure. However, I've been told by plenty of people most people closest to THOSE people that nothing good was said about me. Honestly I don't care much about what anybody has to say about me. Because they don't owe me anything and I don't benefit from them anyway. But don't be fake! Don't smile in my face and then bad mouth me behind my back.

And if you couldn't be man and/or woman enough to tell me the truth about what was said about me, then its obvious who is truly guilty.
My past has nothing to do with who I am today and if THOSE people closest to you couldn't understand that, then obviously you couldn't either and that's why we are better off apart..

DON'T JUDGE OTHERS WITHOUT LOOKING IN THE MIRROR YOURSELF!

KISSES
-MRZ ENDY

I'M BACK!!!... :-D

SORRY SORRY..
My deepest apologies go out to all of you. Who keep up with me and read this blog.
And continued checkin back for updates while I have been gone! But great news I'M BACK!!!

I had to do like the celebrities do and take some time off get my mind right, get some things in my life together and get back on track. I'm back rejuvenated and ready to spill my guts to all of you LOL.

Where should I begin hummmm...well I've been very well actually! I'm completely happy in my life. Career wise, family, my friends are great (and the group keeps growing LOL) no such thing as having TOOO many friends. LOL

Love life you ask? Humm well that's a secret I will never tell my fellow bloggers :-D

"Sometimes you gotta go through the pain to experience the joy."

Kisses
-Mrz Endy

Perfect exit of 07 and great entrance of 08

I can finally say that I am happy that 2007 is over!!
Allow me to quote a very wise journalist "It's definitely been quite the ride, a ride that some of us will choose to forget and others long to remember. No matter your opinion on '07, the world keeps turning." -Renaissance man
I truly agree with that statement! Regardless of how bad 07 was, we need to either learn from it and move on or try to erase it from our memories and never look back. As for me my biggest wish and deepest desire is to forget 2007 and erase everything about it. I will act as if i have amnesia and i skipped a whole year in my life. It was truly a horrible year. However, we learn from our mistakes right?

Moving along, at least I was not totally dissappointed with 2007. The year ended on a great note with a great person ;-)
There is always a person in our lives that we have learned much from and have inspired us to do better for ourselves. You are my inspiration ;-)

On another note I'm finally 21. It's a big year. 21 is the reflective year for most people.
Thats when we take the chance and look back at the foolish things we have done in our past.
And realize we are either just fine the way we are or some changes need to be made. When we hit the age of 18 we think we are so grown and wise.
But time flies and before you know it, It's tomorrow. So use your time wisely on your road to life.

So as for me, 21 is a realization of who i want to become. Just me practicing my morals and getting better at my true calling -writing. Putting things in my life back into perspective, placing myself first before anything, and never letting anything or anyone ruin my dreams or try to break me. I've grown alot mentally and emotionally in the past year. And as I am very much aware of my maturity, I am taking charge of my life. I'm making 2008 my year. With my book in the works, school under my belt, a good job, great people around me to lift my spirits and inspire me. What else can I possibly ask for?

I don't think I've ever been as happy as I am now. I FINALLY feel complete!

I entered 2008 with the one person who can always make me smile. Never in my right mind did I think we were going to meet again. I guess life plays tricks on us. But for the most part he is a good friend that was placed in my path for alot of reasons. Especially at this point in my life. We have been away from each other for so long but he returns now when i needed him the most. Maybe it's a coincidence, it was meant to be. He helped me look at things in a whole new light. For that and many more things he will always have a huge place in my heart ;-)

Writing is my calling, my passion, my strength. It helps me get through my days and makes me feel good about everything. Being able to clearly display my emotions and feelings through my writings is what im going to continue doing. And i hope that as you read through this blog you can relate. Hopefully you will take this journey with me for many more writings to come.

Lots of love
-Mrz Endy :-)